I get it now.
I finally get what it means to be a mom. I remember in the first few weeks with Futcher when he was going through his fussy period, I was so heartbroken that I couldn't immediately provide what he needed and help him to stop crying. I know that over the years I will experience this emotion over and over and over again. My mom has endured this more times than I can count with all of her children, me especially.
Dear Mom,
I appreciate you now, more than I ever have in my life. I know now that being a mom means enduring all of my chid's emotions. And you have endured 28 years worth of 4 children's! I have only been doing it for 6 months. But every time my baby cries, I feel it. When he is in pain, I'm in pain. When he is sad, I'm sad. I can't imagine all of the tears you felt with me over the years. Every heartache, you ached with me. Every time I didn't make a team (which was often over the years), you cried with me. Every tear of joy, you shared with me. For this, I am so thankful.
To me, being a mom means being willing to sacrifice yourself for your children, and I would do that in a heartbeat for my little monster. This has been the most rewarding journey I have ever taken.
It is the greatest gift God has given me.
For Mother's Day, I don't need flowers or jewelry. My gift is being a mom. My gift is seeing my baby smile his big toothless grin at me. My gift is watching my husband be the best father I could have imagined. My gift is changing diapers and cleaning spit up. It's watching my baby learn to crawl and eat and communicate. It doesn't get much better than this :)
